Paralyzed

I can’t feel a thing

I miss that zing

I feel numb

I can’t say those words

It hurts my throat

To open up

To speak those words

To bring my heart out

To tell you all about

Keep it out there for you

For you to feel it

For you to steal it

So I slide that feeling

Deep down my lungs

Where it’s not healing

Where no one’s seeing

With the realization

I am changing…

Only if I could…

Only if I could change the world that surrounds me

Only if I could see things the way you see

Only if I had the strength to overcome you

Only if I could bear the pain that always grew

Only if I could show you the mask I have been wearing

Only I could unload the weight I have been bearing

Only if I could make that one moment go away

Only if I could take back the words I shouldn’t say

Only if I could bring back the days that made you smile

Only if I could make you once again walk that mile

Only if I could stop the clock from ticking

Only if I could hold this wound from sticking

Only if I could withstand the storm within

Only if I could forget with no regrets and once again begin…