A reason to live

Hindi version first, then English below along with my painting…

Image from Seema Pillay

Clear your mind, your heart istrying to tell you something

                                   – Anonymous

Hindi version…

Wajah diye ja…

Ab khud pe bhi ehasaan nahi karte hum

Ki ehsaan bhi ehasaan farahmosh ho gaye hain
Zubaan bhi hoti hai inki, ye kise maloom tha
Hum to jaise apne hi dil mein mehmaan se ho gaye hain

Sukoon to uske aagosh mein bhi mil sakta tha
Par wo hamari khamoshi ko inkaar samajhne lage

Ye zaruri to nahi ki hum maut ki duaa maangte
Par ab hum unke inkaar ko wajah si dene lage hain

 

Nasha ho bhi aur nahi bhi ye mumkin to nahi

Par aapki wafa ka bhi lihaaz rakhna tha

Itni guzaarish thi ki ab koi ehsaan na reh jaye

Aakhir apni khwaishon ka khayal bhi to rakhna tha

 

Khayal aa hi gaya wafaon ka, Jawaab de hi diya duaaon ne

Apni nazron mein gunehgaar na ban jayen

Par ab unki nazron me bhi izzat kama li thi

Par ye bhi kabhi hua hai

Ki do gaam chalen manzil k liye aur manzil aa jaye?

Ittefaq ki baat hai ki rukh badal gaya hawaon ka

To mere dil guzre ka gamm na kiye ja

Ye kasoor to tha kambakht wafaon ka

Ab to bas gumraah kar k jeene ki wajah diye ja

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English version…

I don’t do any favors on myself anymore

For they are lacking the gratefulness, i adore

I am shocked to see they have strength of their own

The heart that was once mine, now out I have been thrown

 

Although there was a sign of relief in his embrace

But my silence got him lost in a maze

It’s not that i have given up on my life yet

But I am becoming the reason for all denials and regrets.

 

It wasn’t possible to love and still being able to hate

I had to pay you the respect for your loyalty, my mate

I am begging not to drop any more favours at my gate

I have some duty towards my wishes too, before it’s too late…

 

Oh lord my loyalty has been noticed

My prayers have been answered

Donot make me a culprit in my own eyes

So my dear heart, Stop regretting the past

Loyalty had played mind game with us

Go on mislead me and give me a reason to live in this vast…

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