Silence – a Punishment

Image from Seema Pillay
“Truth is like surgery, it hurts but cures. 
Life is like painkiller, it cures but has side effects forever”
                                – Anonymous
Original below in Hindi version…and English below the Hindi one
Khamoshi…ek Saza…

Wo shaam aayi aur chali bhi gayi
Kassamh se…dard aaj bhi wahin hota Hai
Bin kuch kahe aaj fir subah ho gayi
Waqt nahi badla, dil aaj bhi us dard pe rota hai

Zindagi ye nayi, lagne lagti hai purani
Aaj bhi…aaj bhi jab zikra tera hota hai
Haq bhi hai aur ab marzi bhi hai meri
Ab to jaam le kar hi deedaar tera hota hai

Ab kabhi yaad aye to aankhen band kar Lena
Band aankhon k zariye bhi bhot kuch hasil hota Hai
Manzil teri, raaste tere, koshish bhi teri
Fir bhi ye dard mujhe kyon hota Hai

Ajeeb si Khushi hai aaj tere dum pe ae ajnabee
Is mod pe ye haadsa kisi kisi k saath hi hota hai
Tab jo bol k na nibha paye…
Dekh lo – wo ab khamoshi se bayan hota hai

Itni shiddat se chahne ka sila dekh liya aaj
Ye khwaab kahan kisi ka poora hota hai
Kuch hasil ho na ho, itna zaroor seekha Hai
Is mukaam pe har insaan rota Hai

Khwaab hi Hai, ise khwaab hi rehne do
Tootata hai ye to dard bada hota hai

Fir sambhlne ka dum is nacheez mein nahi
Baar baar alvida kehna aasaan nahi hota hai…

The English version

The most awaited dusk has now gone

Believe me, it still hurts at the same place

We haven’t spoken a word and here comes the dawn

Times haven’t changed, my heart still gets lost in the same old maze

In this new world of mine, i am still reminded of you and old times

As they begin to drag me to the past

Its my right and my wish as well

Let me just stay unconscious, it heels me fast

If you ever miss me, just close your eyes

Even closed eyes can give you satisfaction immense

Its your destiny, your path, your tries

Still the pain in MY heart grows dense

It’s because of you there exists a weird happiness

Life isn’t the same unfair game for everyone

The words that didn’t do their magic then

See – without a word spoken now, the game is done

Loved you to moon and back

and faced the consequence

These wishes don’t ever come true

Regardless of what you gain, the lesson here is

At this point in time, life always turns blue

Let this dream be a dream for ever

Because when love scars it cuts deep

Its impossible to bear this pain again

Its difficult to say goodbye once again, for the promises you didn’t keep…


Living the night

Image from Seema Pillay


 “People cry not because they are weak, but because they have stayed strong for too long”
Yes, I am living the night
For the world outside
But there is a storm raging
In my world inside
I am trapped in time
There is lot to settle
Does anyone care here
For my falling petals?
The color on me
Is the color of blood
If you let me open
I might even flood
I cant stay straight
I cant stand tall
I am ripped everywhere
I was meant to fall

The Sunshine Blogger Award 1

Sunshine Blogger

Novus Lectio – You are such a sweetheart! Thanks for visiting my blog often! And more thankful for nominating me for this award. Thank you Sunshine!

The rules:

Thank the blogger who nominated you and post a link back to their blog
Answer the 11 questions the blogger asked
Nominated 11 new bloggers to receive the award and write them 11 new questions
List the rules and display the sunshine blogger award logo in your post.

My Answers:

The five things that make you happy? Family, Friends, Painting, Mountains, Fall colors
Which adventures would you love to have before you die? Bungee Jumping, skydiving
If you could be someone else for 24 hours? Supreme court judge of India, so I can pass the death sentence for all the rapists and predators in record!
The one thing you love about yourself? My Smile 🙂 
What goals do you have for yourself now? I believe in living one day at a time, no major goals, no hard stops, just live as it comes…
If you were the richest person on earth what would you do? I will end up buying so much crap that i really don’t need!
If you were reborn in a new life would it be in the past or future? Future of course, I am so done with past. I would like to meet the new devil.
Would you like re live your life again? Hell No! One time was enough.
If there were no cars available would you ride on a camel? May be not, but a horse – yes
Some say that in a near future there won’t be enough food for everyone, insects would be the solution. Would you accept to live out of insects? If that’s the new Devil, I will go back to past
How often do you follow new bloggers ? I am always in the lookout for people who are new to blogging world because I am one of them 🙂

My Nominees:

Aiswarya Menon



d i l i p

Ssameera 🙂


My Questions:

  1. Relationship – Friend or Love?
  2. Vacations – Beaches or Mountains?
  3. Seasons – Summer or Winter?
  4. Food – Sweet or Spicy?
  5. Movies – Action or Drama?
  6. Jewelery – Platinum or Diamond?
  7. Subject – Maths or Science?
  8. Kids – Son or daughter?
  9. Sports – Water or Air?
  10. OS – iOS or Android?
  11. Believe in – Revenge or Forgiveness?

Week 3 on WordPress – Mystery Blogger Award 1

Mystery Blogger

What a start of a week! I completed 2 weeks in the WordPress world on 28th Jan!

Within 2 weeks, I have the honor of being nominated as a Mystery Blogger. Thank you Tejasvi Kashyap for the nomination! I don’t know her in person, but her blog posts are heart touching. Even the one liners are something you will always relate to!

The ‘Mystery Blogger’ award, originally created by Okoto Enigma, is named after the meaning of this award’s creator’s name. In his words, ‘there are so many blogs that are still a mystery to us; when we get to know them, it’s divine and we find friends where we least expect’.


  • Feature the award logo/image on your post
  • List the rules
  • Thank the blogger that nominated you
  • Tell the readers 3 things about yourself
  • Mention the creator of the award and provide a link as well.
  • Answer the questions provided
  • Nominate 10-20 bloggers and notify them by commenting on their blog
  • Ask the nominees 5 questions of my choice with one weird/funny question (specify)
  • Share and link to your best post(s)

3 things about me go as follows:

  • I am a working mom/wife living in United States, New Jersey (where it’s terribly cold right now)
  • I have a beautiful daughter – 7 years old who wants to start her own blog (really!)
  • I love to write conventional and non conventional poems along with painting. My poems are usually not my life (except a few). They are mostly inspired by people, places, things, quotes anything that touches my heart even a bit.

Questions from Tejasvi:

  1. What are my Hobbies? Painting, Sketching, Gardening, Hot Glue Gun Crafts (oh i love them), Singing and of course writing
  2. What do you value most in a friend? Listening skills and trust. Love can happen with blink of an eye without knowing or trusting that person for the first time, but I believe friendship takes time to build and if you have such a friend you never lose them “forever”. You only take a break after having an argument 🙂
  3. What is your first childhood memory? I remember when I was 3 years old I went to my elder sister’s school and sat on her teacher’s lap all day without letting her teach anything that day. It was kind of day school.
  4. What kind of person do you aspire to be? I am happy with what I am right now. I don’t have major goals in life anymore. I take life as it comes, except that I want to be a the best Mom in the world, where my daughter can confide.
  5. Fun question: If you had any superpower of your choice, what would it be and why? I would like to be able to go back to my past lives and find my soulmates! Because there are few people with whom you connect so quickly and effortlessly that it intrigues me. I am big time into Past life regression!

Here are my Nominations:

Nandita Gupta – Poeticperiscope

Sulaiman Hafeez




Here are my questions:

  1. Relationship – Friend or Love?
  2. Vacations – Mountains or Beach?
  3. Seasons – Spring or Fall/Autumn?
  4. Food – Pizza or Pasta?
  5. Movies – Horror or Romance?

My best Posts:

Happy Blogging!

A Dare Story – Not a love story…

Image from Seema Pillay


“There is something comforting about the billion stars  held together steady by the one who knows what he is doing”

                                      – Anonymous

She wants to walk on that path with him

She wants to feel the calms of that river

He wants to break those rules for her

He wants to make her feel like a feather

She wants to be like a branch of that tree

That will some day curl and meet him somewhere

But they walk like edges of the path…

That are never destined to meet anywhere

They accepted the destiny with a smile

They sure are not the rarest of the rare

With a promise to look back after every mile

They carried with their journey and accepted the dare.

A reason to live

Hindi version first, then English below along with my painting…

Image from Seema Pillay


Clear your mind, your heart istrying to tell you something
                                   – Anonymous
Hindi version…
Wajah diye ja…
Ab khud pe bhi ehasaan nahi karte hum
Ki ehsaan bhi ehasaan farahmosh ho gaye hain
Zubaan bhi hoti hai inki, ye kise maloom tha
Hum to jaise apne hi dil mein mehmaan se ho gaye hainSukoon to uske aagosh mein bhi mil sakta tha
Par wo hamari khamoshi ko inkaar samajhne lage
Ye zaruri to nahi ki hum maut ki duaa maangte
Par ab hum unke inkaar ko wajah si dene lage hain
Nasha ho bhi aur nahi bhi ye mumkin to nahi
Par aapki wafa ka bhi lihaaz rakhna tha
Itni guzaarish thi ki ab koi ehsaan na reh jaye
Aakhir apni khwaishon ka khayal bhi to rakhna tha
Khayal aa hi gaya wafaon ka, Jawaab de hi diya duaaon ne
Apni nazron mein gunehgaar na ban jayen
Par ab unki nazron me bhi izzat kama li thi
Par ye bhi kabhi hua hai
Ki do gaam chalen manzil k liye aur manzil aa jaye?
Ittefaq ki baat hai ki rukh badal gaya hawaon ka
To mere dil guzre ka gamm na kiye ja
Ye kasoor to tha kambakht wafaon ka
Ab to bas gumraah kar k jeene ki wajah diye ja
English version…
I don’t do any favors on myself anymore
For they are lacking the gratefulness, i adore
I am shocked to see they have strength of their own
The heart that was once mine, now out I have been thrown
Although there was a sign of relief in his embrace
But my silence got him lost in a maze
It’s not that i have given up on my life yet
But I am becoming the reason for all denials and regrets.
It wasn’t possible to love and still being able to hate
I had to pay you the respect for your loyalty, my mate
I am begging not to drop any more favours at my gate
I have some duty towards my wishes too, before it’s too late…
Oh lord my loyalty has been noticed
My prayers have been answered
Donot make me a culprit in my own eyes
So my dear heart, Stop regretting the past
Loyalty had played mind game with us
Go on mislead me and give me a reason to live in this vast…

Those Unfulfilled Wishes…

First the Hindi version, then English below Hindi, along with my very own painted piece as usual – one of my favorites!

Image from Seema Pillay


“It isn’t hard at all to make a wish. The difficultly lies in how to make what you wish for a reality.”
                                                          – Catherine Pulsifer
Hindi version…
Intazaar karte hue lamhe beet gaye
Hazaron Khwaishen aisi jinse ab vasta na raha
Yun to Kai kirdaar nibhaye hain zindagi ke chalte
Haan par kuch aise bhi hain jahan ab diye nahi jalte

Khushiyon ko awaaz laga k dekh liya kya naseeb hai
Ab zara dard ko pukaar k dekhen wo kitne kareeb hain
Ye hamari nawaazish hai ki hum ab nahi pukarte us khuda ko
Ki ab unse waabaastaa hi nahi jo aapke liye tabeeb hain

Suna hai aap maahir hain diye bujhane mein
To ab Bekafan hi dafna dena, kyunki
Kuch giley aise hain jinki ab shikayat hi nahi
Bas Isliye hame ab taaboot ki zarurat bhi nahi

Apne aks ko dekhkar itna andaaza lagana to seekh hi liya hai
Saath ki zaroorat to har shaks ko hoti hai
Itni khudgarz bhi nahi meri tanhaayi
Ki mile bagair hi faisala suna de

Kuch arzoo hamne akhiraat ke liye chod diye
Ki kuch ehmiyyat to hogi hamare saath ki
Aasaan to nahi tha par aasaar zaroor mile the
Ye mehez jazbaat to nahi ho sakte
Koi to wajah hogi hamari mulaqat ki


English Version…

Waiting all my life,

those moments have passed by,

Where thousands of wishes…

…have been left to die

Although this life has played several roles

There are quite a few that have loopholes

Searched for happiness and figured out the destiny

In the process, pain outgrew, what an irony,

It’s my generosity I don’t call out for you anymore

How do I relate to you if you are not even my cure

I know you are the one who shuts those doors

Go away, I don’t even need your coffin anymore

So now, burry me without a shroud, beacuse

There are no more complaints to be spoken out loud

I have learnt from my reflection

Everyone here needs a companion

My loneliness is not self centered

To make a decision without your agreement

Leaving a few wishes for the world I am yet to see

That meeting will be as significant as it could be

It hadn’t been easy but it is hopeful for sure

You did make a difference, It cant be just the emotions

There has to be a reason why we met at his door…

The Last Journey

Image from Seema Pillay

The Last Journey


“Have faith in your journey, everything had to happen exactly as it did to get you where you’re going next”

                                                            – Mandy Hale


I don’t care where I lived, how I lived, when I lived, with whom I lived

The last journey to the moon, I want to be with you

I want to hold your hands, I want to kiss your cheeks,

All I want to say and hear is, I do I do I do…

I want to gaze at the stars with you,

From a place, where there is nothing else to be seen,

I want to whisper in their ears and tell,

What a journey it has been.

I want to peep in the dark and call the fireflies

I want no other lights around me

All I want to see, is your gleaming eyes

All I wish, is your aura around me….

The moon is holding us together

The stars are blessing us from the skies

May this be forever

Praying for God, to roll that dice.

A happy me is in the forming

The sad me has departed the world

The waves of emotions are at the peak, storming

As I lie in your arms, curled…

Destroyed in love…

Image by Seema Pillay

In Hindi first then English below that…


“How happy is the Blameless vestal’s lot!
 The world forgetting, by the world forgot.
 Eternal sunshine of the Spotless mind!
 Each prayer accepted, and each wish resigned: “
                   – Eloisa to Abelard, Alexander Pope, 1717.

Fanaa hoon…

Tumhe yaad kar loon ya bhula doon
Ye dard hai kahan kahan jo dawa doon
Samjh lo to Pyaar karne ki raza hoon
Na samjho to dard sehne ki saza hoon
Pi lo to aankhon ka Nasha hoon
Ji lo to jeene ki wajah hoon
Haan ab Tumse mil kar bhi Juda hoon
Aur ab is baat par khud se hi Khafa hoon
Khush reh kar bhi gamon ka silsila hoon
Dard ji kar bhi khushiyon ka raabta hoon
Maan lo to bas quatra hoon
Jaan lo to zindagi ka aashna hoon
Shabnam ki oas me lipta qahr hoon
Qainaat me jo na ghul paye wo zehr hoon
Teri khamoshi kehti h tera kasoor hoon
Jo alfaaz me na bayaan ho wo fitoor hoon
Aagaaz ko na dekh, ab to har pal anjaam hoon
Aaj Ishq mein tere kuch is tarah fanaa hoon


English Version…

To forget you or remember you, I m not sure

The pain is so brutal, it’s not worth the cure..

If you can interpret it right, you have my consent

If you don’t, I could be a penance, you will repent

You be drunk if you take my sip

And I will happily be the reason to sink your ship

Yes, I am here, with you and still being without you

Displeased with myself, for something I already knew

I can stay happy and still connect with all the pain

I can live all the pain and still be closest to the happiness rain

You may know me as dew drop…but

If you believe in me I will be the joy pop

Look at that dew drop, I am the storm in there

I am the undissolved venom of this universe, beware

Your silence is the proof I am your guilt at the peak

I am the obsession in you, that words can’t speak

Why look at the start, that I am the result all above!

What led me here? Regardless, now I am destroyed in your love