The forgotten one…

Painting by Seema Pillay

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“I feel my heart ache, but I’ve forgotten what that feeling means”

                            – Chuck Palahniuk

Tears roll down like flowers from her eyes

She must have been through a lot

What looks like bunch of flowers to you

That might be all she got…

She holds the burden in her strong shoulders

Yes bravely, she has fought

The depth of her wound is beyond any measurement

She is tied to her pain in the hardest of knots

Her heart bleeds and spreads the love

But the fresh cut wounds, beginning to clot

She stands tall to remind them of her

About her life – Half misused, half forgot…

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Blue and White Dreams

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She dreams blue she dreams white

What has come true has never been bright

She gathers all the courage to dream allover again

Yet she is sick for fear, for it may be all in vain

The dream that gave her happiness first.

Their pleasures here are past, and so is their pain

She died several times, several times she rose again

But No one could see her shadow suffering in pain

Now she wonders when shall they meet again

In thunder lightning or rain?

 

 

 

Ocean of Dreams

Painting by Seema Pillay

Ocean of Dreams

“Your commitment had the power to shake the very foundation of this universe”

Peace in my dream

I dream for peace

Its an ocean full of wishes

The moment I want to seize

I painted my dream

A dream full of wishes

I won’t let it go

I will hold it with my kisses

The dream i will paint

I will hold it forever

But it will never come true

It will lie on my stiches

You can’t handle the truth

Its worse than those stiches

My dream calls for me

I will be back, for it misses…

This ain’t the end

I long for that horizon

Where the dreams behold them

And i wait for those bridges…

Fifty Shades of Sky

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Fifty Shades of Sky

“The sky grows  darker, painted blue on blue, one stroke at a time, into deeper and deeper shades of night.”

I admire your vastness that fills the emptiness in air

The burden of sun moon and stars, how do you bear

To suit their moods you change your colors

You understand their language and relate to their fears

I hear those thunders loud and clear

Is that a way you scream to make them cheer

Your shades so fierce, show how much you care

Those raindrops that fall down must be your tears

You cry for them, for sure they must be dear

How lucky they are, they have someone to hear

It doesn’t matter then if you are far or near

All it matters is when they need you are there

 

Dreams Confessed

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“I dream my painting and I paint my dream.” 

                                                                          Vincent van Gogh

 

Here I confess my dreams today

Where the beautiful sky matches the grey

Where the one I hold is willing to stay

Where wishes come true every day

Where stream that flows is shining white

Where the one I hold…holds me tight

Where sun shines yellow, red and bright

Where flowers that bloom have the color of pink

Where the beautiful sight makes my heart sink

Where i know my dreams will never shrink

Here I confess my dreams today

One day my dreams will find their way…

My Reflection

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“Life doesn’t come with a Manual – it comes with a Mother

Life doesn’t come with Angels – it comes with a Daughter”

 

Oh my reflection, I am here for you

Life is tough darling, but so are you!

You will outgrow my lap, but never my heart

Being your mother has been, quite an art!

My little wanderer, your eyes full of adventure

You are little tornado but also my thirst quencher

Before it begins, you heal my pain

I want you as my daughter, time and again

I wish you love, I wish you laughter

Oh my reflection, no sorrows there after

The day you come face to hurdles

Remember our talks and snuggly cuddles

Fight the demons and win your battle

Face them in the eye and don’t be a tattle

I will hold your hands until I breathe

The day I am gone, you have to be on your feet

You are my heart, you are my soul

The source of my smile, my happiness as a whole

Keep shining oh beautiful one, and fly like a kite

I will be your shadow now, later you be my light

Oh my reflection, I am here for you

Life is tough darling, but so are you!

Depression

Painting by Seema Pillay

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“The worst thing in life is not  to end up alone, but being with people who make you feel alone”

She is scared, She feels shallow,

It feels the depth has vanished

Her inner self feels hollow,

Her emotions were banished

The footstep that follows,

Makes her crave for more

When she turns around to hold,

Disappear and leave her sore

She can’t hear the raging storm

She can’t smell the sweet rain

She can’t hear the howling wind

She only feels the growing pain

The voices sound hoarse

Yes she had screamed and cried

Tried to find the source

To let the pain slide

She heard something, Oh its the silence

The silence so weird, so insane

Now approaching her

She is afraid she will never be back again…

Married for 39 years, Together for lives

In living memory of my Dad who passed away on November 26th 2017
 

Dedicated to my loving parents

“Parents will hold you safely above their Swirling waters, and sometimes that means you may never know what they endured and you may treat them unkindly, in a way you otherwise wouldn’t”

We know we love we know we fight.

We make it up, we make it alright

We met as strangers from two different worlds,

We invented the recipe to make lovely girls

Our very 1st date we lied at home,

With you on my side I felt it was Rome

The good times we lived the bad times we killed,

We rocked our life, with happiness filled

We held each other tight in sad and glad times,

We always were willing to be partner in crimes

We stood the test of time,  we walked the narrow road

At the end of every day its you i want to hold…

Why…

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“In your light I learn how to love, In your beauty, I learn how to make poems.
You dance inside my chest where no one sees you, but sometimes I do, and that sight becomes this art.”
                                                                      – Rumi
Hindi version
Hum soch baithe ki bhool gaye wo nishaniyan
Wo khamosh bhi rahe to dastaan si suna gaye
Hum intazaar mein rahe ki aaj Faisla ho hi Jana tha
Wo Faisla bhi sunae to dilasa sa de gaye
Khusboo aakhir phool se juda kaise rahe
Wo dard-e-jashn ka nazara  jo dikha gaye
Un khayalon k Saath jeena manzoor tha kyonki
Wo vida bhi hue to Sahara sa de gaye
Hosh mein na Dikha jo dekha aaj madhoshi me
Wo kinare bhi rahe aur kinara bhi de gaye…
English Version
I thought you gave up on the memories
But you stayed silent and still spoke to my heart
While I kept waiting for your decision
You decided against me but still couldn’t depart
Your pain is beyond any imagination
Then how would the flower(you) and essence(I) stay apart.
I am willing to live with your memories because
You left physically but your presence didn’t depart
What I couldn’t see in all my senses, now I see
You cornered me but that corner was inside your heart…