Only if I could…

Only if I could change the world that surrounds me

Only if I could see things the way you see

Only if I had the strength to overcome you

Only if I could bear the pain that always grew

Only if I could show you the mask I have been wearing

Only I could unload the weight I have been bearing

Only if I could make that one moment go away

Only if I could take back the words I shouldn’t say

Only if I could bring back the days that made you smile

Only if I could make you once again walk that mile

Only if I could stop the clock from ticking

Only if I could hold this wound from sticking

Only if I could withstand the storm within

Only if I could forget with no regrets and once again begin…

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Illusion

It’s a walk to remember

The one where you were by my side

I gave myself to your arms wide open

Where I found my peace and used to hide

A hope that never rose is a pain that will always grow

The wish I hold in my heart is a truth you will never know

The days when eyes smiled, that time will fly away

A laugh that I shared with you will be the memory that will slowly shy away…

The bright color of my love slowly turning grey

Did all that matter, does anyone care anyway…

Agony

It’s invisible but I feel it around

It’s the one I have been living in

It hurts it bites it scratches it breaks me

Its the one I have been trying to win

It makes memories good and bad

It takes moments and crumples them to die

A million memories flashed my mind

Leaving heart to bleed and letting eyes to dry

The bite marks on my tongue

Are from the things I never said

I will carry them to my grave

And make sure they are never read…

Heartless

Looking for some peace so I can sleep like a baby

All this suffering is killing my heart

I headed to heaven guided by those angels

The day you stopped dancing on my chest or taking the form of art

Sad tears drop one after another

Hopelessly crying about the said and the unsaid

Painful and dreadful as it was meant to be

It didn’t kill me physically but mentally declared me dead.

Creeping in my veins, chewing out my brain,

I cry out loud, hiding my voice in the rain

Why can I not hear you anymore

Am I on the other side of the shore?

Is it impossible to do what I asked

Did you even see me, I was at your door..

The moon is no more bright

The sun doesn’t shed anymore light

The stars are crying with me

And you keep going out of my sight…

The longing…

“Wo Jo Teri yaad me ji liya, Wo haseen sirf ek pal tha

Wo Jo ab laut k na aega kabhi, Wo meri zindagi ka kal tha”

Shayad hi sheher mein aisa koi nadaan ho

Jo ishq kar k kahe – khuda na kare koi nuksaan ho

Par Jo Doosri baar bhi hoti to tum hi se hoti

Main jise beintehaan kehti hoon, uska intahaan na lo

Tujhe apne dil ki khabar mere dil se mil jayegi Ghalib

Par jo main rooth jaun kabhi to mujhe manane ki khatir rishta to bana lo

Zara nazook mizaaz hai mere ishq ka, Aqal ka bojh nahi utha paega

Haqikat mein shamil kar k ise saza na suna do

Kaisa intazaar tha ye, tujse milne ko jab beqaraar tha dil

Mausam nahi badla, tujse mil k bhi usi haal mein hai dil

Kaun kehta hai khamoshiyan bolti Hain

Idhar hum sadiyon se khamosh Hain aur wo sadiyon se bekhabar

Teri talkhi ab chubhne si lagi hai, ya ye mere takhayyul ki hai jurrat

Darr hai ki Jis Vasl se kareeb aaye the usi vasl se na ho jaaye furqat

“Jo raakh sa bikhar Gaya, Kya wo ishq tha ek vehem

Ki ab tere intazaar mein din bhi kat jaate hain aur raten bhi…”

Mercy me…

Miles to go Before I sleep

I am trying hard, but it’s hard to sing the song my heart sang yesterday

No matter what i do, the taste of your dulcet kiss on my lips is slowly fading away

I have come so far but the memory of that ephemeral love is there stuck halfway

Mercy please, I don’t want to wake up, when I go to sleep today

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Fading Away

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Found him in the darkest Meadows

Pure and light like joy of life

His eyes captivated her day and night

Dazzled her like the sharpest knife

She felt connected like never before

All her strings used to sing his song

When his sweet memories tickled her thoughts

She yearned for more, and her heart used to sing along

 

Goodbye from her

“Love” – The reason I dislike that word is because it means too much for me, far more than you can understand.”

Her heart gone silent, a silence that hurts

She is happy but she is a little sad.

Trying to figure out all she really had

Got scars on her heart by touching few people, felt like she was dying

Only because she let herself scream without even crying

Being madly in love and still not ready

But hanging in tight and holding it steady

She loved you in a way you have never been loved and still not going to join you on the bridge

She is drinking 3 kinds of poison and driving life off the ridge.

Her heart goes through a slow death, shedding each hope like leaves, until nothing remains

It will hold you up there till the last breath even if that means that it pains.

Let her keep the last piece of her heart before you tear it all apart.

Straining under the weight of all the lives she is not living, sometimes she can hear her bones.

She now sees the difference between “living on my own” and “being alone”

Been there now and then, now been here for years.

The secret place she landed is known as the land of tears

She smiles her sorrows away, still chained with her past
Hurts her every time she says goodbye, and you would never know which one is the last.

The Waiting…

This life is a dream, a dream within dreams
Solitude is a painful reality that screams
Everything else is dream
Dreams within dreams with dreams without dreams

I serve a punishment without any end
In a fathomless dark chasm
For a crime I didn’t commit.
I follow the path without direction Wherever it may lead
Scratching memories to bleed

Gushing rivers of tears without an end

Every second pulls me close
To the neverlasting hope of love and pretend
Through the Sparks of twilight I Rose.

It hurts to read the words carved in my heart

I look around, but the darkness inside my eyes so bright.
Darkens the brightest rays of light.

I still look back, in despair. All in vain now because it’s dark everywhere.

Dil k Khali panne

Apne Dard Ka Haal Sunaein ya ghayal dil bayan Karein
Wafa Mili Ho Jinhe Wo bewafai Ki Baat na karein

Kuch kehna bhi na pade aur wo isharon mein samajh jaen

Is umeed se aiyea kuch mudde ki baat Karein

Jab har ghum pe aaj mukhauta chada hi diya
To Karein Bhi to magar Kis Khuda Ki Baat Karein

Dilwale Kai Hain Koi wafaadar Bhi To Ho
Chalo Aaj fir Usi Bewafa Ki Baat Karein…